I am aware,

that sometime, I don’t always get what I want. But rather, what I need.

When I told you a story that I wasn’t doing good in my academy, I was aware that God wanted the best of me. Somehow, I knew that I couldn’t stand spending my life studying in a subject of Computer Science. Yet, I chose it because I thought, if my parents wanted me to apply for Computer Science, it was because they knew what was best for me.

They didn’t.

I am aware,

that if I cry over spilt milk, I have only myself to blame. If I make errors, there’s only me to receive the consequences of my action. So actually, I cried when I wasn’t accepted for Computer Science major. Because I thought, I failed my parents.

Yet, at the same time, I was aware that this was all that I wanted. Now I study at Information and Technology System major. I don’t know if this is the best that I can get, but…

…I am aware of what I can become.

via Daily Post: Aware

4 thoughts on “Self-Aware

  1. I hope you in the midst of questioning and unsureness, you can sense direction from within, and that eventually (as you have said, God wants the best of you—), you will feel God’s love directing you rather than the circumstances and influences of life. I do hope you find peace in how this process works, and that your trust in God will grow because of it. God bless you!


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