I don’t want to blame anything or anyone. Apparently, blaming things won’t solve any problems. But what I feel right now. . . let’s say I’m on the cusp between motivated and disinterested.
Disinterested may be a common issue here. Some of my friends were motivated when they freshly entered my current college. Now, they may be disinterested in finding internship. In my opinion, it’s safe to assume that there’s something bad happened in the process. But I won’t talk about it here.
The exhaustion of college brings me to the state I feel now. I’m not as motivated as a year ago where I could — and would — read novels rather than play games. Because although both are artificial, books apparently feel more natural.
Right now, even I’m slightly disinterested in playing recent games. Not to mention because they’re ludicrously expensive, but also I’m already programmed to work even in my spare times. And thus, that’s why I’m on the cusp between motivated and disinterested.