I think that someone should be scarred before he can be a better man — physically and psychologically. It can come from many things, ranging from failures, depressions to even disappointment.
Well, I was super naive back then. Thinking that I was ready to love and be loved intimately other than my family seems . . . stupid. It is a big folly. I should had accepted the fact that she had never liked me in the first place, but I’d refused the fact. I didn’t want to see the truth.
After crying for three hours following my unrequited love for her, I realized that I shouldn’t be this way. It was wrong. I was too young to settle down, to take care of someone else when I actually couldn’t take care of myself properly. It was a turn point for me, to become a better self.